I just cleared Final Fantasy IX for what I believe to be the fifth time. It's been a while. I still love the story. It's still such a big part of me and who I am. I wish I could explain just what it is about the story that's captured me, but... Well, it's so hard. It deals with a lot of things. Friendship. Identity. Thoughts. The will to live. The fear of death. Trust. How you can choose your own way of life and what to believe about the world and how things work. Memories. Dreams. Colours. Its hard to explain. It's so personal for me. As the credits rolled, I had tears in my eyes. I' m still sort of fighting the urge to cry. I'll stop fighting that urge once I get downstairs and I am alone, but for now, I have more important things to do. think I needed this. To visit this story again and to fall in love with everything again, all of it. The entirety of the story. Not just fragments here and there, not just the beginning, but the middle and the end as well. This particular story is important right now because of where I am in my life and because of the things I've been thinking about and the things that scare me now. I feel better now. And when I forget how I felt, I'll try harder to remember it again.
Now, the song that follows this entry is the song for the end credits. I used to listen to it all the time, but it's been... Years, I think. It was a big part of the process of dreaming for me. Daydreams. My daydreams usually took place at night when I was younger, because I couldn't sleep. I would just dream about other worlds and about friendship and love and I would speculate upon the "big" questions in life and... Well, I still do all of these things. But I didn't have much in my life back then, apart from inside of my own head. Or, I had less than many people my age. There was so much time to think about everything. So I did just that. And I lived through words and songlyrics and music and stories.
And this song is still beautiful. So. Here it is.
"How did you survive...?"
"I didn't have a choice. I had to live. I wanted to come home to you. So... I sang your song. Our song."
~
Now, the song that follows this entry is the song for the end credits. I used to listen to it all the time, but it's been... Years, I think. It was a big part of the process of dreaming for me. Daydreams. My daydreams usually took place at night when I was younger, because I couldn't sleep. I would just dream about other worlds and about friendship and love and I would speculate upon the "big" questions in life and... Well, I still do all of these things. But I didn't have much in my life back then, apart from inside of my own head. Or, I had less than many people my age. There was so much time to think about everything. So I did just that. And I lived through words and songlyrics and music and stories.
And this song is still beautiful. So. Here it is.
"How did you survive...?"
"I didn't have a choice. I had to live. I wanted to come home to you. So... I sang your song. Our song."
~
alone for a while
I've been searching through the dark
for traces of the love you left
inside my lonely heart
to weave by picking up the pieces that remain
melodies of life, love's lost refrain
our paths, they did cross
though I cannot say just why
we met, we laughed, we held on fast
and then we said goodbye
and who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
let them ring out loud 'til they unfold
in my dearest memories
I see you reaching out to me
though you're gone
I still believe that you can call out my name
a voice from the past
joining yours and mine
adding up the layers of harmony
and so it goes, on and on
melodies of life
to the sky beyond the flying birds
forever and beyond
so far and away
see the bird as it flies by
gliding through the shadows
of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
leave them now, and see what tomorrow brings
in your dearest memories
do you remember loving me?
was if fate
that brought us close and now leaves me behind?
a voice from the past
joining yours and mine
adding up the layers of harmony
and so it goes, on and on
melodies of life
to the sky beyond the flying birds
forever and...
...if I should leave
this lonely world behind
your voice will still remember our melody
now I know we'll carry on
melodies of life
come circle 'round and grow, deep in our hearts
as long as we remember
I've been searching through the dark
for traces of the love you left
inside my lonely heart
to weave by picking up the pieces that remain
melodies of life, love's lost refrain
our paths, they did cross
though I cannot say just why
we met, we laughed, we held on fast
and then we said goodbye
and who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
let them ring out loud 'til they unfold
in my dearest memories
I see you reaching out to me
though you're gone
I still believe that you can call out my name
a voice from the past
joining yours and mine
adding up the layers of harmony
and so it goes, on and on
melodies of life
to the sky beyond the flying birds
forever and beyond
so far and away
see the bird as it flies by
gliding through the shadows
of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
leave them now, and see what tomorrow brings
in your dearest memories
do you remember loving me?
was if fate
that brought us close and now leaves me behind?
a voice from the past
joining yours and mine
adding up the layers of harmony
and so it goes, on and on
melodies of life
to the sky beyond the flying birds
forever and...
...if I should leave
this lonely world behind
your voice will still remember our melody
now I know we'll carry on
melodies of life
come circle 'round and grow, deep in our hearts
as long as we remember
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