Silent all these years

I'm not OK.

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excuse me, but can I be you for a while?
my dog won't bite if you sit real still
I've got the antichrist in the kitchen, yelling at me again
yeah, I can feel it

been saved again by the garbage truck
I've got something to say, you know, but nothing comes
yes, I know what you think of me, you never shut up
yeah, I can feel it

but what if I'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his with her name still on them?
hey, but I don't care, 'cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
and it's been here
silent all these years

so you've found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
what's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
boy, you best pray that I bleed real soon
how's that thought for you?

my scream got lost in a paper cut
I think there's a heaven where some screams have gone
I've got twentyfive bucks and a cracker, do you think it's enough
to get us there?

'cause what if I'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his with her name still on them?
hey, but I don't care, 'cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
and it's been here
silent all these

years go by, will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand?
years go by, if I'm stripped of my beauty and the orange clouds raining in my head
years go by, will I choke on my tears 'til finally, there is nothing left?
one more casuality, you know, we're too easy, easy, easy

well, I love the way we communicate
your eyes focus on my funny lip shade
let's hear what you think of me now, but baby, don't look up
the sky is falling

your mother shows up in a nasty dress
and it's your turn now to stand where I stand
everybody looking at you - here, take hold of my hand
yeah, I can feel it

but what if I'm a mermaid
in these jeans of yours with her name still on them?
hey, but I don't care, 'cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
and it's been here
silent all these years
I've been here
silent all these years