The winner takes it all

The lyrics are enough. They're... Accurate.

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I don't wanna talk
about things we've gone through
though it's hurting me
now, it's history

I've played all my cards
and that's what you've done, too
nothing more to say
no more ace to play

the winner takes it all
the loser standing small
beside the victory
that's her destiny

I was in your arms
thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
building me a fence

building me a home
thinking I'd be strong there
but I was a fool
playing by the rules

the gods may throw a dice
their minds as cold as ice
and someone way down here
loses someone dear

the winner takes it all
the loser has to fall
it's simple and it's plain
why should I complain?

tell me, does she kiss
like I used to kiss you?
does it feel the same
when she calls your name?

somewhere deep inside
you must know I miss you
but what can I say?
rules must be obeyed

the judges will decide
the likes of me abide
spectaters at the show
always staying low
the game is on again
the lover for a friend
a big thing or a small
the winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
'cause it makes me feel sad
and I understand
you've come to shake my hand
I apologize
if it makes you feel bad
seeing me so tense
no self confidence, but you see

the winner takes it all
the winner takes it all

the game is on again
a lover or a friend
a big thing or a small
the winner takes it all

Hey man (now you're really living)

<3

~

do you know what it's like to fall on the floor
cry your guts out 'til you've got no more?
hey man, now you're really living

have you ever made love to a beautiful girl
made you feel like it's not such a bad world?
hey man, now you're really living

now you're really giving everything
and you're really getting what you gave
now you're really living what this life is all about

well, I just saw the sun rise over the hill
never used to give me much of a thrill
but hey man, now I'm really living

do you know what it's like to care too much
'bout someone that you're never gonna get to touch?
hey man, now you're really living

have you ever sat down in the fresh-cut grass
and thought about the moment and when it will pass?
hey man, now you're really living

now you're really giving everything
and you're really getting all you gain
now you're really living what this life is all about


now, what would you say if I told you that
everyone thinks you're a crazy old cat?
hey man, now you're really living


do you know what it's like to fall on the floor
cry your guts out 'til you've got no more?
hey man, now you're really living

have you ever made love to a beautiful girl
made you feel like it's not such a bad world?
hey man, now you're really living

Alexandra leaving

Leonard Cohen remains a master of poetry to me - not songwriting, poetry. He catches the words and tastes them, feels them, and uses them to put everything into words exactly as it should be put into words. I don't know how he does it. But he does it so well. Wisdom of both love and life, (found, then lost) and, of course, a beautiful melody.

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suddenly, the night has grown colder
the god of love preparing to depart
Alexandra hoisted on his shoulder
they slip between the sentries of the heart

upheld by the simplicities of pleasure
they gain the light they formlessly entwine
and radiant beyond your wildest measure
they fall among the voices and the wine

it's not a trick, your senses all decieving
a fitful dream the morning will exhaust
say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
then say goodbye to Alexandra, lost

even though she sleeps upon your satin
even though she wakes you with a kiss
do not say the moment was imagined
do not stoop to strategies like this

as someone long prepared for this to happen
go firmly to the window, drink it in
exquisite music - Alexandra laughing
your first commitments, tangible again

and you, who had the honour of her evening
and by that honour, had your own restored
say goodbye to Alexandra, leaving
Alexandra leaving with her lord

even though she sleeps upon your satin
even though she wakes you with a kiss
do not say the moment was imagined
do not stoop to strategies like this

as someone long prepared for the occasion
in full command of every plan you erect
do not choose a coward's explanation
that hides behind the cause and the effect

and you, who were bewildered by a meaning
whose code was broken, crucifix uncrossed
say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
then say goodbye to Alexandra, lost

The stars shine in the sky tonight

So, I've started watching Ghost Whisperer. No, I'm not joking. And I found this beautiful song in what has to be my favourite episode so far. The episode is about four lost boys, four orphans. Three of them were killed when their orphanage took fire. One of the boys just broke my heart, he was so... Real. He wore this weird raccoon-like furry hat, and he had the most amazing smile. My heart just went out to him. Seeing as I heard this song while watching Ghost Whisperer, it made me think of death. But I kinda think it would have anyway. Or maybe... Growing up. Being afraid of growing up alone and leaving behind all the things that used to make you safe. You and your friends growing up, but not alongside each other. ...For me, I guess, it's about a lot of different things - I haven't quite figured it out yet, I need to listen to it again and again and again... But... I've got a pretty good idea... I feel so lost. I wish that you could guide me. That we could just... Walk beneath the stars and wish and be saved and safe. And I know I want to go with you. Wherever you're going. Wherever I'm going. I don't want to part.

~

I can't live in a world that
you have left behind
seen a lot, been through too much
but this is where I draw the line

it's not where you're coming from
it's where you're going to
and I just wanna go with you

december is a lonely month
in a year of lonely days
it's hard to tell which way is up
or down or out or through the haze

people cheat and people lie
while you just watch it all go by
counting days until you die

the stars shine in the sky tonight
like a path beyond the grave
when you wish upon that star
there's two of us you need to save

it's not where you're coming from
it's where you're going to
and I just wanna go with you

Everything you want

When I was about twelve years old I spent most of my time watching AMVs and dreaming about tLOtR and Final Fantasy. I didn't have much else to do. I dreamed and I dreamed and I dreamed and I dreamed and I would wish myself away to all of those worlds and pretend. This is one of the AMVs I watched back then, I actually found the exact video on youtube (the power of the internetz, folks), which was a pretty big treat for me... Tried listening to this song again for the first time in years (was a few weeks ago), and I just had to dig up that video. I've never heard anything else by Vertical Horizon, but I so love this song, it's beautiful and cool and just soothing for my ears. I still see the video inside of my head whenever I hear it... Great lyrics, too, even if they're really simple. They're just right.

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somewhere they're speaking

it's already coming in

oh, and it's rising at the back of your mind

you never could get it

unless you were fed it

but now you're here, and you don't know why

but under skinned knees and the

skid marks

past the places where you used to learn

you howl and listen

listen and wait for the

echoes of angels who won't return

he's everything you want

he's everything you need

he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be

he says all the right things

at exactly the right time

but he means nothing to you and you don't know why

you're waiting for someone

to put you together

you're waiting for someone to push you away

there's always another

wound to discover

there's always something more you wish he'd say

he's everything you want

he's everything you need

he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be

he says all the right things

at exactly the right time

but he means nothing to you and you don't know why

but you'll just sit tight

and watch it unwind

it's only what you're asking for

and you'll be just fine

with all of your time

it's only what you're waiting for

out of the island

into the highway

past the places where you might have turned

you never did know this

but you still hide away the

anger of angels who won't return

he's everything you want

he's everything you need

he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be

he says all the right things

at exactly the right time

but he means nothing to you and you don't know why

I am everything you want

I am everything you need

I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be

I say all the right things

at exactly the right time

but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

and I don't know why