Skins

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfoWhYQfxls

This has to be the best wrap up of a season ever made. I couldn't find the video itself and embed it to, but I've put in a link to it, at least. Skins is a show that found me about a week ago. It's mine now, and I'm its. At least this season is. Beautiful.

When I listen to music outside, I'm inside of it. Inside of the story of it. Or the song is inside of my story. Or both. The season finale of Skins is like that. And the video itself is a must see. The first season itself is a must see. Explore it.

~

now that I've lost everything to you
you say you want to start something new
and it's breaking my heart you're leaving
baby, I'm grieving

but if you want to leave, take good care
hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
but then, a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you just like a child, girl

you know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
and it's breaking my heart in two
because I never want to see you sad, girl
don't be a bad girl
but if you wanna leave, take good care
hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
but just remember there's a lot of bad, and beware

oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you just like a child, girl

baby, I love you
but if you wanna leave, take good care
hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
but just remember there's a lot of bad, and beware

oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
and I'll always remember you like a child, girl

oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
and I'll always remember you just like a child, girl

Crucify

First Tori Amos song I ever heard.

I'm sick of guilt.

~

every finger in the room
is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces
then I get afraid of what that could bring
I've got a bowling ball in my stomach
got a desert in my mouth
figures that my courage would choose to
sell out now

I've been looking for a saviour in these dirty streets
looking for a saviour beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
just what god needs
one more victim

why do we
crucify ourselves?
every day
I crucify myself
and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
every day
I crucify myself
my heart is sick of being
I said, my heart is sick of being in
chains

gotta kick for a dog
begging for love
I gotta have my suffering
so that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
he says, "will you ever learn?
you're just an empty cage, girl
if you kill the bird,"

I've been looking for a saviour in these dirty streets
looking for a saviour beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
got enough guilt to start
my own religion

why do we
crucify ourselves?
every day
I crucify myself
and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
every day
I crucify myself
my heart is sick of being
I said, my heart is sick of being in
chains

please, please
save me
I cry

looking for a saviour in these dirty streets
looking for a saviour beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
where are those angels
when you need them?


why do we
crucify ourselves?
every day
I crucify myself
and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
every day
I crucify myself
my heart is sick of being
I said, my heart is sick of being in
chains

Piece by piece

I'm trying to do this for real now, you know. I'm trying to let go. I'm trying so hard. Nothing has ever hurt like this hurts. Nothing. And for the first time, these lyrics are true. They're perfect. I could try to describe what they mean to me, what we meant to me, but I can't. Because if I do then I'll...

~

first of all must go
your scent upon my pillow
and then I'll say goodbye
to your whispers in my dreams

and then our lips will part
in my mind and in my heart
'cause your kiss
went deeper than my skin

piece by piece
is how I'll let go of you
kiss by kiss
will leave my mind
one at a time, one at a time

first of all must fly
my dreams of you and I
there's no point
in holding on to those

and then our ties will break
for your and my own sake
just remember
this is what you chose

piece by piece
is how I'll let go of you
kiss by kiss
will leave my mind
one at a time, one at a time

I'll shed like skin
our memories of lazy days
and fade away the shadow of your face

piece by piece
is how I'll let go of you
kiss by kiss
will leave my mind
one at a time, one at a time

Midnight Radio

Life is painful. And I've made so many mistakes. But I'm doing all right. I'm doing the best I can. And maybe I'll know that I'm whole some day.

~

rain
falls
hard
burns
dry
a dream or a song
that hits you so hard
filling you up
and suddenly gone

breathe
feel
love
give
free
know in your soul
like your blood knows the way
from your heart to your brain
knows that you're whole

and you're shining
like the brightest star
a transmission
on the midnight radio

and you're spinning
like a fourty-five
ballerina
dancing to your rock and roll

here's to Patti
and Tina
and Yoko
Aretha
and Nona
and Nico
and me
and all the strange rock and rollers
you know you're doing all right
so hold on to each other
you gotta hold on tonight

and you're shining
like the brightest star
a transmission
on the midnight radio

and you're spinning
your new fourtyfives
all the misfits
and the losers
well, you know you're rock and rollers
spinning to your rock and roll

lift up your hands
lift up your hands
lift up your hands
lift up your hands
lift up your hands
lift up your hands

Terry's song

Ashes, dust, earth. Grief. Saying goodbye. A song for a funeral, a song for sorrow, for being human, for stories, and for memories. Something I would like to say or sing to my friends if they leave this place before I do. 

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. There's an atmosphere in this song that's just completely unique. In spite of my incredibly emotional nature, it takes a lot for a song to make me cry. Just something about the changes in the chords and the haunting sound of the piano, and Bruce's beautiful voice bringing it all together, to life...

~

well, they built the Titanic to be one of a kind
but many ships have ruled the seas
they built the Eiffel Tower to stand alone
but they could build another if they please
Taj Mahal, the pyramids of Egypt
are unique, I suppose
but when they built you, brother
they broke the mold

now, the world is filled with many wonders
under the passing sun
and sometimes something comes along
and you know it's for sure the only one
the Mona Lisa, the David, the Sistine Chapel
Jesus, Mary and Joe
and when they built you, brother
they broke the mold

when they built you, brother
they turned dust into gold
when they built you, brother
they broke the mold

well, they say you can't take it with you
but I think that they're wrong
'cause all I know is I woke up this morning
and something big was gone
gone into that dark ether
where you're still young and hard and cold
just like when they built you, brother
they broke the mold

now your death is upon us
and we'll return your ashes to the earth
and I know you'll take comfort in knowing
you've been roundly blessed and cursed
but love is a power greater than death
just like the songs and stories told
and when she built you, brother
she broke the mold

bad attitude's a power stronger than death
oh, I've been burning or stone cold
when they built you, brother