'Til Kingdom Come

I think I finally found at least one song to describe these more or less music-free months that I've been going through. With that, I don't mean that the song itself describes the fact that the past months have been music free, I mean that I'm finally inside of a melody again. And maybe it's just a one time thing, maybe I can't get it back again, maybe I'm gonna be a stranger inside of myself for the rest of my life, but I doubt it and I'll fight as hard as I can to keep that from happening. I just miss the music so terribly, I miss it so much. Everything I listen to feels like a part of someone I'm not, not anymore, and it doesn't feel right that I'm not who I was, I don't want it to change this way, I want it back, and I want someone to tell me that I'm me and to give me ten or fifteen songs or melodies that are now, here, and who I am. I got a taste of it today, when I found this. Just... Please. Let me have that again. Please.

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still my heart
and hold my tongue
I feel my time
my time has come
let me in
unlock the door
I've never felt this way before

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know which way I've come

hold my head
inside your hands
I need someone
who understands
I need someone
someone who hears
for you, I've waited all these years

for you, I'd wait
'til kingdom come
until my day
my day is done
and say you'll come
and set me free
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummers begin to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know what I've become

for you, I'd wait
'til kingdom come
until my days
my days are done
and say you'll come
and set me free
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me