The Park

Once again I fail to find a video featuring the entirety of the song I want to share. But at least this is a taste. Found this song, like, five minutes ago.

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why would he come
back through the park?
you thought that you saw him
but no, you did not
it's not him coming across
the sea to suprise you
not him who would know where
in London to find you

sadness so real
that it populates
the city, and leaves
you homeless again
steam from a cup
and snow on the path
the seasons have changed
from present to past

the past
there's hope to have
in the past

why would he come
back through the park?
you thought that you saw him
but no, you did not
who can be sure
of anything through
the distance that keeps you
from knowing the truth

why would he think
the boy could become
the man who could make you
sure he was the one
the one
my one
my one

Friday I'm in love

It's friday. I'm in love. But no matter how much I look, I can't find decent video of this song on youtube. So whoever wants to listen to it better download it. Artist is The Cure.

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I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's gray and wednesday, too
thursday, I don't care about you
it's friday, I'm in love

monday, you can break my heart
tuesday, wednesday, break my heart
oh, thursday doesn't even start
it's friday, I'm in love

saturday, wait
sunday always comes too late
but friday, never hesitate

I don't care if monday's black
tuesday, wednesday, heart attack
thursday, never looking back
it's friday, I'm in love

monday, you can hold your head
tuesday, wednesday, stay in bed
oh, thursday, watch the walls instead
it's friday, I'm in love

saturday, wait
sunday always comes too late
but friday, never hesitate

dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful suprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
sleek as a shriek, spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday, I'm in love

I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's gray and wednesday, too
thursday, I don't care about you
it's friday, I'm in love

monday, you can break my heart
tuesday, wednesday, break my heart
oh, thursday doesn't even start
it's friday, I'm in love

Just like Heaven

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. The first song I ever heard by The Cure, with the most amazing lyrics every. They're so soft. I can't think of a better word to describe them. I've tried a lot of times, but every time, that's the word that comes to mind. Here's to being madly in love.

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"show me, show me show me how you do that trick,
the one that makes me scream," she said
"the one that makes me laugh," she said
and threw her arms around my neck
"show me how you do it,
and I promise you, I promise that I'll run away with you,
I'll run away with you,"

spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
and dreamed of all the different ways
I had to make her glow
"why are you so far away?" she said
"why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you,
that I'm in love with you?"

you, soft and only
you, lost and lonely
you, strange as angels
dancing in the deepest oceans
twisting in the water
you're just like a dream
you're just like a dream

daylight licked me into shape
must've been asleep for days
and, moving lips to breathe her name,
I opened up my eyes
I found myself alone, alone
alone above a raging sea
that stole the only girl I loved
and drowned her deep inside of me

you, soft and only
you, lost and lonely
you, just like Heaven

Perfect Circle

The refrain in this song is so damn lovely.

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a mask is easily placed
on a betrayed and broken face
a disguise to hide the past
when you mapped out my skin
and made the memories last
some things are never erased
and I have run when I've been chased
by recollections of you and me
falling off our homemade castle

and even when I'm walking straight
I always end up in a perfect circle
oh, I try, but I just can't wait
to break out of this perfect circle
'cause giving into old temptation
is like that common twitch
oh, the silly stupid realization;
the more you scratch, the more you itch

why am I fighting? what's it for?
must let my mask drop to the floor
my scars, I shouldn't hide
from the people who are on my side
rolling up my sleeves to fight against
all the things I locked up, all the things I fenced
but it's time to let it out
so we can build a brand new castle

and even when I'm walking straight
I always end up in a perfect circle
oh, I try, but I just can't wait
to break out of this perfect circle
'cause giving into old temptation
is like that common twitch
oh, the silly stupid realization;
the more you scratch, the more you itch

Halway up the Hindu Kush

Desire. Or lust. Or passion, if you will.

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the first time that I saw you
I said, "for goodness sake,
that man's got the power,
he's a charmer with a snake,"
I was thrilled and fascinated
but somehow liberated
when you took me to the place I'd never been
you showed me lots of things I'd never seen

you set me free
as if you'd taken me
halfway up the Hindu Kush
and I love you
for showing me the view
from halfway up the Hindu Kush

the next time that I saw you
you looked into my eyes
I was sitting on your carpet
when I felt it begin to rise
I kinda got the feeling
I was floating to the ceiling
instead of only looking at the sky
you picked me up and showed me how to fly

you set me free
as if you'd taken me
halfway up the Hindu Kush
and I love you
for showing me the view
from halfway up the Hindu Kush

Raindrops

Everything feels so fucking bittersweet today. I want and I want and I want and I want and I...

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you don't know, but that's OK
you might find me anyway
don't you know that I
belong arm in arm with you, baby?

in a town that's cold and gray
we will have a sunny day
don't you know that I
belong arm in arm with you, baby?

and I do not know
where does it go
when it goes?
suddenly, though
everything's slow
and I miss you so

'round each corner, there's a chance
people searching glance to glance
moving 'bout real fast
like insects and fish when they're scared

and they sing the same old song
though it's been so very long
they sing, "raindrops falling on my head"
but that doesn't mean that I am dead

and I do nt know
where does it go
when it goes?
suddenly, though
everything's slow
and I miss you so

you don't know, but that's OK
you might find me anyway
don't you know that I
belong arm in arm with you, baby?

in a town that's cold and gray
we will have a sunny day
don't you know that I
belong arm in arm with you, baby?

Moon River

I stayed up all night yesterday and watched Breakfast at Tiffany's. First time I've seen it. I fell in love, completely and utterly. What a beautiful story, what beautiful people, and what a beautiful song this is. Dreams, dreams, and dreams yet again.

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moon river, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
wherever you're going, I'm going your way

two drifters, off to see the world
there's such a lot of world to see
we're after the same rainbow's end
waiting 'round the bend
my huckleberry friend
moon river and me

Magnetized

I miss autumn.

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slain by your zirconium smile
I was slain by your olivine eyes
slain, I was lying in piles
hoping shovels would cast me in

furnaces burn, everlasting
black tattoos of you onto me
furnaces burn, everlasting
black tattoos

burn, brand my memory
black, a tattoo of you
wash me with your mouth
brackish, bright water from your eyes

I'll homing pigeon fly
to hover by your window, white and shy
homing pigeon fly
to hover by

spill my ashes to the wind
ghosts can gather what they've found
now, we can struggle in the web
we can struggle

with white spider stars coming down
and night, blowing black from the ground
with white spider stars coming down
and night, blowing black from the ground

Speed of sound

Beautiful piece, this one. A big Coldplay favourite in my book. Especially the sweet sound of the chorus... This song is... The first month of high school; the driving to school along with dad, the thoughts I had back then, the warm summer/autumn-blend of weather and temperature(the smell, the wonderful smell that never came back in any of the summers to come), the old schoolbuilding where our classroom was back then (we moved into the new schoolbuilding after a couple of months), the trips to Kiwi during recess, the freshness of it all, and all the stuff that was scary and strange and just plain awful.

I miss it.

all that noise and all that sound... Achingly beautiful.

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how long before I get in?
before it starts, before I begin?
how long before you decide?
before I know what it feels like?

where to, where do I go?
if you never try, then you'll never know
how long do I have to climb
up on the side of this mountain of mine?

look up, I look up at night
planets are moving at the speed of light
climb up, climb up in the trees
every chance that you get is a chance you seize

how long am I gonna stand
with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop
before I see things the right way up

all that noise and all that sound
all those places that I've found
and birds go flying at the speed of sound
to show you how it all began
birds came flying from the underground
if you could see it, then you'd understand

ideas that you'll never find
all the inventors could never design
the buildings that you put up
Japan and China all lit up

the sign that I couldn't read
or the light that I couldn't see
some things you have to believe
but others are puzzles, puzzling me

all that noise and all that sound
all those places that I've found
and birds go flying at the speed of sound
to show you how it all began
birds came flying from the underground
if you could see it, then you'd understand
oh, when you see it, then you'll understand

all those signs, I knew what they meant
some things you can invent
some get made and some get sent

and birds go flying at the speed of sound
to show you how it all began
birds came flying from the underground
if you could see it, then you'd understand
oh, when you see it, then you'll understand

'Til Kingdom Come

I think I finally found at least one song to describe these more or less music-free months that I've been going through. With that, I don't mean that the song itself describes the fact that the past months have been music free, I mean that I'm finally inside of a melody again. And maybe it's just a one time thing, maybe I can't get it back again, maybe I'm gonna be a stranger inside of myself for the rest of my life, but I doubt it and I'll fight as hard as I can to keep that from happening. I just miss the music so terribly, I miss it so much. Everything I listen to feels like a part of someone I'm not, not anymore, and it doesn't feel right that I'm not who I was, I don't want it to change this way, I want it back, and I want someone to tell me that I'm me and to give me ten or fifteen songs or melodies that are now, here, and who I am. I got a taste of it today, when I found this. Just... Please. Let me have that again. Please.

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still my heart
and hold my tongue
I feel my time
my time has come
let me in
unlock the door
I've never felt this way before

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know which way I've come

hold my head
inside your hands
I need someone
who understands
I need someone
someone who hears
for you, I've waited all these years

for you, I'd wait
'til kingdom come
until my day
my day is done
and say you'll come
and set me free
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummers begin to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know what I've become

for you, I'd wait
'til kingdom come
until my days
my days are done
and say you'll come
and set me free
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait
you'll wait for me

Everybody but me

I've been really into Lykke Li lately. I listen to her before going to bed, mostly, because these days I'm not in a music kind of mood. I'm not used to not wanting to listen to music - you see, I really WANT to want to listen to music, but when there's no music availiable that feels like a part of me right now, I just can't. I can't listen to music when I'm not, like, inside of it. Kinda sucks, not being able to really listen to music. Don't know if that makes sense. But whatever. I'm still really into this amazing girl, or woman, and this song is so sweet and pretty.

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oh, I'm standing in the corner
thinking all I want to, what am I to do?
should I go home, still sober
or should I buy me another glass of wine
and forget about time?

though my jeans are too tight
don't feel like dancing
and all this light is too bright
don't feel like shining
no, this room is too small
I'd rather stand against the wall
and hope that no one sees me

when everybody's dancing
I don't want to
when everybody's toking
I don't want to
when everybody's laughing
I don't want to
everybody but me

when everybody's drinking
I don't want to
when everybody's using
I don't need more
when everybody's floating
I don't want to
everybody but me

I get the creeps from all the people in here
I can not breathe, it's too crowded in here
don't look at me, I don't wanna be seen
touched, heard, bothered by the fellas
who got a look in their eye
they wanna take me home without knowing my name
they wanna put it on, but do they not know
is that I'm not like the others

when everybody's dancing
I don't want to
when everybody's toking
I don't want to
when everybody's laughing
I don't want to
everybody but me

when everybody's drinking
I don't want to
when everybody's using
I don't need more
when everybody's floating
I don't want to
everybody but me